Wednesday, August 23, 2006
wow... more den 1 yr since i last posted... such a long time had passed... hmmm... omg... wat have i been up to in the past yr? in the Army where else!
The past yr had been a very new and curious period for mi, i have to admit even though i was in the ncc, i was shocked by the army.. being in a totally new place with total stranger put even the bravest to fearful puppies!! okie, i was jus being kua zhang! BMT, a place where i learn to grow up.. but also a place where i learn that even if u try to be as frenly as possible but not all ppl will be ur fren.. backstabbing, bitching... omg.. but glad i still found some true fren there! Sad to say it was also in BMT tat i drift away from a lot of ppl.. very sad... haiz..
Went on to SISPEC... hmm.. very sad tat i did not make it to OCS... sad might be an understatement... i was devasted... but jus blame it on mi not being as physically fit as an officer should be.. in term of leadership i would say "bring it on!".. i am no stranger to leading.. haha...
FOXTROT COY, a place where i really learned a lot of things... made a lot of new fren too... i really miss SISPEC days... was one of the most fun place i can ever be in the army.. and it was here tat i got promoted to the rank of CPL too.. sispec warriors!
Procced on to MILITARTY POLICE SPECIALIST COURSE! wow... i went for the interview for fun only and wow! i got in... damn funny.. It was in this course that i trained up to become fitter than i ever was... ya, still not tat fit but at least compared to anytime of my life, i was the fittest when i was in this course.. haha... this course was the best la, i enjoy the company of my "fantastic 4"!! we did all sort of crazy stuff... laughing our head off when we are being punished... laughing at each other during stand by bed... lolz.. waking up in the middle of the nite to have biscuit and chit chat.. omg.. i am missing them already!
NOW, posted to narcotic section of the dog training wing, i am a very sad and low morale man..
frankly speaking i have no wish of being posted here even though everyone say this is the best place, enjoy life the most and all those shit.. but the only good thing i feel is that u get to go home everyday... being in this place, being asked to sweep leaves, clean up the place, build stupid construction, pick stupid stones, all these damn shit.. HECK MAN! i am a 3rd sergent for goodness sake.. i went thru so much shit, sweat, pain to get this rank.. i must at least be doing something fulfiling wat.. to put it in a crude way, i am ashamed that i, a 3rd sergent, is not leading man, protecting the country, fighting... yes, i might not be the fittest spec, but i rather lead my grp of man and go thru stuff which we wil rem forever rather den waste my hard work to sweep leaves and do all those sai gan!
Enough of the army stuff!! haiz.. how abt other aspect of my life u ask?
i realised, i got a lot of fren! tons and tons of fren! but it is a case of yeah i know this person and that but we are jus hi, bye... how many fren do i really have tat i can ask to go out regularly and can pour my heart out to? less then 5 i guess... many time i feel so lonely, so super lonely... oh ya.. there this person.. i got a lot to tell u but i guess there is no chance le.. ZING
went to melvin bday chalet tat day... got 1 person want mi to tok abt her.. so here i shall.. THE WORST BRIDGE PLAYER I HAD EVEN PLAYED WITH!! muahhaha... CLARIS! omg... wanna kill mi liao rite? lolz.. i had know her during new yr when i went to ruina's hse.. but at this chalet was where i really tok to her more.. or rather in way of suanning! muhahaha.... she is so super blur la.. i only display 1% of my power and she blur liao.. lolz... oh ya.. i call her DUMBO.. lolz
but she is someone i can chat well with.. but tat day when chatting with her, i was reminded of some things.. she say her classmate buying her strepstil.. so good... i tot to myself, i used to buy someone strepstil too.. did she ever told some1, "so good"?... she tok abt missing american next top model.. and again i was reminded.. tat someone used to be such a fan of ANTM.. she will catch every single epi and if i sms her or wat when she watching she will jus ignore mi or send a vague reply.. haha.. i guess i really miss her... no matter what.. she is still the closest girl friend i ever had..
haiz.. i feel like i still got a lot to say but i really dun know what to write now.. a lot is on my mind.. but dun know how to convert it to this blog.. haa.. i miss sch... army made mi realised how much i miss studying... i feel lost every day now... when i "knock off" from work, i will be like all alone with no one to turn to.. even the simpel thing of finding 1 person out for dinner or bowling or jus go out i cant... there might be ppl i can ask but somehow or rather.. i didnt ask.. what is happening to mi? i am still the cheerful on the outside guy.. but deep inside?
sometimes... alex jus feel like he is the loneliest man alive...
and sometimes.. sometimes... alex might jus cry himself to sleep... =)
Alexelion MisSeD yOu @ 9:59 PM